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Why me?

Sometimes I ask God why me? Why do I have to go through this hard trail or task. Why did I lose two babies. Why did my brother have to leave this world so soon. In my mind I just couldn't understand it. I had always planned on taking care of Josh when my parents couldn't anymore. When I lost the first baby the doctors told me that the life just wasn't able to make it outside of the womb. That it probably had some sort of disability. In my mind though I knew I had what it took to take care of someone with a disability though. Which is love. God knows my heart and how much I love my brother and my babies. That didn't slip his mind. Even though I doubted Him on this. It's hard to trust God when you have a broken heart. But his ways are bigger than ours. For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.  For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:8-9. Do I understand why everything happened the way it did now? No, not everything. I probably won't till I get to heaven. That's the good part though. I get to go to heaven when my life is said and done. Jesus died on the cross for me and this whole world. Just so we can have the life that God wanted for us all in the beginning. Where there's no heartache, pain, or suffering. No sin. Sometimes I ask why me, but someday I will see. I will see my babies and brother and my Lord and Savior Jesus. Thank you God for blessing me with the ability to go to heaven because of Jesus. He loves us all and wants us all. If you don't know Jesus as your Lord and Savior I urge you to know Him. You will find everything you have been missing.

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