To blessed to be stressed

  I can't even count how many times God has forgave me. I have messed up so many times, everyday. Sometimes it's not on purpose and, sometimes it is. There was even a time in my life when I would say to God just let me "live my life a little" and I would come back to Him. That was such a mistake on my part. I know I missed out on blessing that I could have had. If I would have been following God... But I am a selfish person sometimes. I get angry, short with others, and many other things as well. I am not perfect. I mess up. The good thing is though, God still loves me and forgives me when I truly ask for forgiveness.   Once I ask for forgiveness I can 100% trust that God has forgiven me. He doesn't hold it over my head. Now the devil tries to remind me of all my mistakes. God won't though. God will forgive us when we come to him with repentance. He wants to because of Jesus and, what Jesus did for this whole world. Jesus is the one that gave it all so we ca...

When i have a longing for God and His ways, but don't know how to take the next step for my life. That's when God steps in and leads if I look for his ways.     There is a book called Fervent written by Priscilla Shirer. It has helped me grow so close to God. It's a book about prayer. Now God knows my heart and what I want out of this life. And He knows my prayers even when I can't put words together cause of a broken heart or just not knowing how to deal with certain situations. He knows. This book really lays out how to pray to God though.  Fervent means having or displaying passionate intensity. When I pray fervently in prayer I can see things change. My whole relationship with God changed. I am truly so thankful for this book. I have been seeing myself change and growing closer to God. I have been seeing prayers answered. God is good and wants to lead in the right direction. It just takes a listening and willing heart.  Shortly after reading that I was asked ...

Sometimes I ask God why me? Why do I have to go through this hard trail or task. Why did I lose two babies. Why did my brother have to leave this world so soon. In my mind I just couldn't understand it. I had always planned on taking care of Josh when my parents couldn't anymore. When I lost the first baby the doctors told me that the life just wasn't able to make it outside of the womb. That it probably had some sort of disability. In my mind though I knew I had what it took to take care of someone with a disability though. Which is love. God knows my heart and how much I love my brother and my babies. That didn't slip his mind. Even though I doubted Him on this. It's hard to trust God when you have a broken heart. But his ways are bigger than ours. For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the Lord.  For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. Isaiah 55:8-...